I am a woman in my early 30s and my husband and I have been trying to conceive without luck for over two years now. I am a full-time student. I am also a military spouse and I do volunteer work for my husband’s squadron. My age, school, and military life have all been major factors in the stress I’m carrying with me as we try to conceive.

I am writing this blog because our journey has been difficult for me even from early on and I have found that I can’t quite open up to everyone in person about the details. I have turned to the anonymity of the internet so that I can speak about what’s been happening, share my journey with others, and give and receive support from others who may be on a similar path.

When I started this blog I really had no idea how much infertility was going to impact my life or how connected to this community of bloggers I would become. I have connected to so many wonderful women and men sharing their stories, their heartaches, their triumphs on the internet. It is amazing and beautiful and I am grateful every day to be a part of it.

If you’re new to reading my blog be prepared for snark, cursing, depression, and at times gut-wrenching honesty. I didn’t start blogging anonymously to pull any punches. You will read about everything I’m feeling, good and bad. But if you are still willing, please join me on this ride.

A few notable events:

October 2011 – Started Trying to Conceive
November 2012 – Started Blogging
May 2013 – Started Fertility Testing
June 2013 – Diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS)
June/July 2013 – Pregnancy loss due to ectopic pregnancy
February 2014 – Began medicated cycles with Femara
May 2014 – Pregnant, hoping this one sticks


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  1. Hi there,
    many thanks for the follow on Posts of Hypnotic Suggestion, I really appreciate it. For what it’s worth, in the work that I do where there is unexplained infertility, lifestyle can have a major influence. Stress can be a huge factor in this. If you are able to find ways to reduce the stress or it’s effects, that may help.
    I hope 2013 is good for you
    All the best

  2. Hi, it’s me again! I’ve just read your very first post and its comments about what not to say, i.e. don’t stress about it!
    I thought I’d add that my comment above is from a professional viewpoint of stress rather than simply a platitude from a well meaning bystander.
    I’m happy to offer advice if you think it may be helpful and not at all offended if you’d rather not.
    All the best (again)

  3. I truly admire how brave you are in writing this blog. The women in my family who have had children in their 30s have each had trouble conceiving and have had to go through numerous means of fertility options, so while I can’t personally say I relate, if nothing else it’s an issue that worries me as I get closer to the “child-bearing years.”

  4. I was never sure that I could even get pregnant, because I never had been. I was 37 when I had my only daughter, and even though many might think I was a “late bloomer”, my husband and I are feeling like it was right on time! I am now 42 and raising my kiddo and wouldn’t change a thing. I guess what I am saying is that feeling stressed about timing can be, well, a bitch indeed. I wish you beautiful luck and relaxing thoughts!

  5. Hi other military spouse!! I accidentally came across your blog and incidentally am an AF Spouse, in my early 30s, and just finished my doctorate degree. I am also constantly surrounding by a ton of fertile a-holes who keep having kids and continually post about them on FB. Yay military life! Anyways, whatever. There is alcohol always.

    1. Welcome! I feel like us infertile military spouses are a special breed. We are the one percent of the one percent. Always glad to have someone else around who gets it. And yes, yay for alcohol πŸ™‚

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